A Love that I Never Known, Molly Silvanic

"Never fear anything but fear itself", was the quote that I was raised by. But fear never scared me, fear was just an emotion that I could allow myself to feel by watching a scary movie or walking down a dark alley. I could do something dangerous and feel fear without even trying. But what I feared, most in the world was love. I was terrified of love but yet I longed for it. I couldn’t make myself feel love. I can love myself and I do. I can love others and I’ve tried, but there is no way that I can allow my heart to feel loved by someone else.
My whole life I never knew what real love felt like. I knew what liking someone felt like But love was the one thing that I never understood. After being adopted, I longed for love. Love was my drug and I was addicted but it was being addicted to something you’d never tried. I wanted the to feel the perfect movie star love where everything always worked out, I wanted to feel the family love where a family would love you unconditionally, and I wanted to feel the everything love where someone would love me every morning, everyday, and every night. And I finally did. My love has a name, and it’s name is EOP. It’s an indescribable love. And all the years I had to wait to find it, was worth it. The way it feels to be able to have a home away from home, with counselors, friends, a second family that will support me and inspire me everyday makes life so much easier. EOP has shown me through giving me my chance to shine that I can be a star. EOP has inspired me to be a deans list student and to prevail no matter what situation and when I feel like I need to give up, EOP had been there.
EOP has shown me love by giving me my second chance in college, giving me the support system and soldiers to help me fight the obstacles and not give up no matter the conequences. The only way I know how to thank EOP is by not giving up because the moment I take a break or give up everything EOP and I have worked for, I am letting myself, my family, and my future down. All EOP asks of every one of their students is one hundred percent and EOP deserves success, EOP deserves a future because EOP is helping me shape my future. Success will be my middle name, along with hardwork and dedication because of the love I have found with my new family, EOP.